Knight of Mars (sailornash) wrote,
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Writer's Block: I Can Relate

What fictional character do you most identify with?
Kyo Sohma

Not much surprise there. Perhaps a little, for those of you expecting me to put down's something of a tossup, I admit. Both fit me extremely well but I think Genrou's the public side of me that everyone sees and Kyo's the side of me that I keep a little more hidden, and therefore the side that I feel is a touch more genuine. Not that the other is an act, or that there's really all that much difference between the two in the first place.

There's tons of tough guy stereotypes out there. But it's so much more than just that. It's not an act, trying to pretend to be tough. It's not about trying to impress anyone. Part of it's about just plain being tough. The rest is actually about being scarred, almost being weak in a way, pushing folks away as if protecting yourself by keeping folks out at arm's length. Even if you might not want to, it's as wired in as any other survival instinct. The short temper, the anger and rage might seem harsh but it's not a sign of a cruel heart. Really, Kyo's real protective of the folks he cares about. Problem is that he cares - sometimes maybe even too much, and he doesn't know how to handle that. Damn sure doesn't know how to show it.

And ironically, in another strange coincidence, my ideal perfect woman would pretty much be Tohru Honda in a nutshell, almost down to the last hair on her head. I knew that long before I had a name to compare that ideal fantasy girl to, but now that I've seen Furuba it makes the description so much easier. (Albeit slightly creepy due to my own similarities with the male lead from that same show...)

Of course, I've got more than enough in common with Tasuki as well. Same kinda wild personality, though more so while I was younger. I'm afraid that I'm calming down more as I grow older. Same sense of style...I usually wear beaded necklaces when not at work and love the leather duster look. Was even supposed to get one for my high school graduation present until I had to blow that money on an unexpectedly high phone bill. I still want one, even though now folks will say it's because of Tasuki and even though it rarely gets cold enough in 'Bama to really need one. Besides that, I'm definitely a pyro...not much doubt there. He's a bandit; I've always been called an outsider, a self-proclaimed outlaw from society. He's a mountain man, and while there's no "Southerners" in Japan I think that's about the closest thing. Kansai is often translated as a Southern drawl, to prove my point. Even though he's a rebel he's still got a heart of gold, a description that I've heard used for me as well. He's got a strong sense of honor, and a strange compassionate side that goes beyond his rough exterior. I've never claimed that women are more trouble than they're worth and that I'm not interested the way Tasuki so fond of saying, but on the other hand I don't date and have made no attempt to do so in some time. Even our only fears are the same...I'm a "hammer", too. ^^;

I suppose with all those similarities I'm lucky that I didn't inherit the red hair that the Dixon side of my family is so famous for. Got their temper for damn sure, and got plenty of red in my beard but my hair's more brown than orange. I think that would have been a little too much, all things considered.
Tags: anime, self-analysis, writer's block

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